I think it is hard for my dad to realize how nervous I get sometimes. He has always been playing music for people - writing his own songs, singing his own songs, and doing what he loves. In my opinion, it is and will always be a very brave act. And, what is more is that I do not think I need to explain why I think it is just that! It is highly personal and emotional just as it should be.
My parents are go-getters who know what they want, but are entirely different people. My dad is the artiste type. My mom is the technical one, who needs effiency, order, and something to keep her busy. My dad is the one who just lets time do what it will, he is a man of leisure and his life has been good to him for it. I like to think out of my brother and myself, I exhibit a more equal balance of my parents. My brother is incredibly like both but it depends entirely on mood. He can be either; he, in my opinion, can be anyone he wants to be. I can only be me - I cannot change. I am a steady portrait of my mom and dad.
Today I worked all day on four hours' sleep. I have to say, I am happy with today. Happy is a huge step for me right now. I have felt gloomy for the past week, and I open my arms to a day like this. I think I am willing to hold back now, I think I am willing to go back to quiet, understanding, and tolerant Brittney. Probably the one people know.
